[ . . . ah. He's heard this before. Truly, this world is so cruel to them sometimes. So he's just going to frown and roll closer to Kousetsu, putting down the cup so that he can use his hand to reach out to him and place a hand on his friend's arm.]
Hey... I had the same thing. It was... pretty scary, huh?
But you know what I think the good thing is? I think that it's nice to know that no matter what, some people will always be around to take care of you.
[ Kousetsu just nods silently in reply. It had been terrifying, mainly because a few swords have actually forgotten those closest to them. Due to trauma with fire or whatever else in their pasts. This was just ceres doing it for fun and he didn't appreciate it one bit. ]
...yes, you are right. There were many there who...helped me. I am grateful for that.
[ Kousetsu is humbled by those words and he simply nods his head silently in acknowledgement. ]
Thank you...Tenk-san. I will do the same for you as well. But I...hope that it does not happen again. [ He's tired of so much happening around here. Where is his peace, where is his quiet. ]
A...secret, Tenka-san? [ Kousetsu will tilt his head as he moves towards the other, bending down slightly to at least be eye level. Are you sure you should be telling him these things?! Secrets are serious business after all. ]
[ If there's any surprise at the sudden, but gentle, headbutt Kousetsu's expression only registers it for a mere moment before he stands stiff once again. His frown is readily apparent as he looks down at Tenka. ]
...I see.
[ But does he really?! He was never very good at expressing himself, nor opening up to people. The other swords were always so eager and open with one another and yet he never felt the need to burden them with his own thoughts. ]
I...am not very good at such things. It is not easy to...speak with the others. [ He's not the most social or outgoing of the bunch, obviously. The only swords he'd ever open up are Sayo and Souza and even then...they both have their own horrible pasts, much more terrible then his own. He was always putting others before himself for that reason. His past compared to so many other swords was nothing. ]
My past has never been quite as...terrible as some of the others. It is why I rather listen and help those in need then to speak of my own thoughts.
[ . . . . hm. It's not unlike what Tenka went through.
In truth, Tenka might've been suffering the most in Otsu - but it was easy to feel like he wasn't. He was surrounded by love, after all. Perhaps there were some bad circumstances and knowing that his death would be coming far earlier than natural was painful.... but it's always important that other people know that they're heard. That they're listened to, because they might not be surrounded by love as much.
Yet Tenka's still going to shake his head slowly, still rather in disagreement with Kousetsu.]
You can always improve, you know.... I want to know what your thoughts are and I'm sure that other people do too. No one wants you to have to take on your burdens alone, Kousetsu-kun.
[ Kousetsu looks curiously at Tenka before nodding. ] ...I see. But I know Haru-san has many other things on his mind, and Sayo...it is not right to burden him more with such things.
[ But, yeah, he really is bad at this whole talking about himself thing isn't he? ] I would not mind speaking with you Tenka-san. If...you are certain it is not a bother. I wish to improve as you say.
... you're right. [And Tenka nods because he gets it -- he still doesn't feel ready to tell Soramaru and Chuutarou things. The only reason why he's started to share with Hinata and Mary is because they've shared with him and he doesn't feel right keeping them in the dark about himself anymore.] I get that. They're kids -- let them be happy and not have to worry about this world. We can bear that burden for them.
[And maybe it's hypocritical, but sometimes being a big brother means making exceptions -- that's always what Tenka's believed.]
But listen to me, Kousetsu-kun. You're never gonna be a bother. You're like a brother to me and like I've said before, our family's gotta stick together, right?
...yes you are right. [ He looks away for a brief moment before turning back to Tenka. ]
Then I will take your advice, Tenka-san. I will...try to be more open about my feelings. [ But it's not gonna be an easy fix. Kousetsu is pretty set in his current ways after all. ]
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...the library. It caused us to act strangely. I...did not remember anyone, and I have just been thinking about that.
[ Forgetting everything and everyone he ever knew was shocking to him. He couldn't even help himself either. ]
I...do not wish to go through something like that again. But, there is no way to prevent it here.
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Hey... I had the same thing. It was... pretty scary, huh?
But you know what I think the good thing is? I think that it's nice to know that no matter what, some people will always be around to take care of you.
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...yes, you are right. There were many there who...helped me. I am grateful for that.
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[ . . . . and Tenka just hums softly.]
And... you should know that if you ever forgot yourself, Kousetsu-kun, I'll never stop looking for you. Because I think that's just what family does.
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Thank you...Tenk-san. I will do the same for you as well. But I...hope that it does not happen again. [ He's tired of so much happening around here. Where is his peace, where is his quiet. ]
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I...do not fully understand what it happens. But I...am trying my best to make sure it does not affect my family and friends.
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I get that... but hey, I'm gonna let you in on a little secret - alright, Kousetsu-kun?
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[And he appreciates Kousetsu being at eye level. That makes life so much easier. So Tenka's just gonna lean in now--
To gently headbutt him -- it's more of a slight knocking of their heads together, not really intending to actually cause any injury.]
The secret is that you need to open up a little more if you really don't want to worry other people.
.... don't be like me and learn that the hard way.
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...I see.
[ But does he really?! He was never very good at expressing himself, nor opening up to people. The other swords were always so eager and open with one another and yet he never felt the need to burden them with his own thoughts. ]
I...am not very good at such things. It is not easy to...speak with the others. [ He's not the most social or outgoing of the bunch, obviously. The only swords he'd ever open up are Sayo and Souza and even then...they both have their own horrible pasts, much more terrible then his own. He was always putting others before himself for that reason. His past compared to so many other swords was nothing. ]
My past has never been quite as...terrible as some of the others. It is why I rather listen and help those in need then to speak of my own thoughts.
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In truth, Tenka might've been suffering the most in Otsu - but it was easy to feel like he wasn't. He was surrounded by love, after all. Perhaps there were some bad circumstances and knowing that his death would be coming far earlier than natural was painful.... but it's always important that other people know that they're heard. That they're listened to, because they might not be surrounded by love as much.
Yet Tenka's still going to shake his head slowly, still rather in disagreement with Kousetsu.]
You can always improve, you know.... I want to know what your thoughts are and I'm sure that other people do too. No one wants you to have to take on your burdens alone, Kousetsu-kun.
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[ But, yeah, he really is bad at this whole talking about himself thing isn't he? ] I would not mind speaking with you Tenka-san. If...you are certain it is not a bother. I wish to improve as you say.
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[And maybe it's hypocritical, but sometimes being a big brother means making exceptions -- that's always what Tenka's believed.]
But listen to me, Kousetsu-kun. You're never gonna be a bother. You're like a brother to me and like I've said before, our family's gotta stick together, right?
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Then I will take your advice, Tenka-san. I will...try to be more open about my feelings. [ But it's not gonna be an easy fix. Kousetsu is pretty set in his current ways after all. ]